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Friday, June 13, 2008

im sorry ; baby

ii found out smth ,
which ii donwan to noe .
ii v . sadd.
ii poon gum to cover my sadness.

this morning awake ,
sleep back , dhen awake msg baby.
meet baby at cp.
wit hher mummy.

before tat ii quarrel wit "" big bird "".
ii v . dulan after ii found out she threw my boxers away.
ii dunoe whye she mus likdat lahhs.

went to lavender for counselling.
with baby ; fat , baby mummy.
in bus ii v . emo .
ii jus feel bekcek n sadd.

ii dulan fat & baby ggo bugis ,
ii alone ggo counselling.
though ii kept quite ,
ii feel left out totally.

ii try to cheer uu up wen ii saw ur face black & lik not happy.
ii tried all my best lerhs , ii even wna buy a stitch for uu after counselling .
but ii gtg to hospital cos ahgongg heart attack at ICU.

wen i heard big bird say ahgongg goin soon ,
ii gonna cry but ii bear wit iit.
ii dunoe whye ii feel v . empty.

ii feel so heart painn.
ii don wish & don wana say out.
uu guys wont understand too.
plus its bout smth tat regarding '' you ''.

who ccan i say?
only maomao.
she ownself oso unhappy.
so ii don dare tok bout it.

gger , ii ccan shower uu with love ,
care , happiness , dote-ness .
but ii somehow feel tat iim losing uu.

maybe ii think much but ii really wna ask uu.
ii don hv the courage to , ii ccan only kept silent & think.
wen ii noe uu smoke without telling miie , ii v . dulan.

but nbm , cos uu already done it wadd.
ii ccant stop uu , cos ii myself a smoker.

after hospital ,
ggo meet maomao @ cp.
ggo the temple , pray my ahgongg will b safe.

ii pray tat uu will be safe & guaii too.
pray uu will study hard , but ii forgot to pray for myself ~
ii pray anything can happen to mii but nort uu.

after tat went to meimei hus nearby slack,
ii feel v . weird , dunoe whye .
ii feel so empty , so heart break.

i decided to po0n gum,
dhen ii noe alot thingy.
though ii don say ,
cos ii will pretend ii din noe nor saw.

so ii wunt keep ask or think.
late in the night , ii cry myself to sleep.
its miserable , ii don even feel any pain wen ii slash myself .

ii feel very very very hurt,
the feelings is somehow ii donoe hhow to decribe ,
ii ccan only tell myself ii will give uu wadd ii ccan.

ii noe my time is getting shorter ,
but ii cherish with all the times ii had with uu guys.
its a memories , ii will buried deep inside.

* imy *

Friday, June 13, 2008