Baby ; i LOVE YOU

so fun ; yeahx

2008-06-22T08:47:00.000-07:00

went ttuh cp ;
get smth iie wna get ,
iim so happy.
tmr ish e day ii nd baby 1mth.

hehe , iie miss you baby.
gonna gib you surprise tmr.
im sure you will b shocked ~

lol =x dhen ggo hme lerhs.
nth much to post.
nd maomao , ii think uu should find a job nd earn money.
nd think before doin anything okays.

baby , baby , baby ,
lalalalas ~ im ggoin crazy liaox~
oOhh ~ lol =x

230508 ; ily

no mood ;

2008-06-21T10:53:00.000-07:00

tikopeh fetch miie up at my hus dwnstairs.
iie waited mao & meii gan jii teh longg.
iie bekcek dao wakaoz.
dunoe oso lahhs .

dhen mao cum dwn ,
waited for meii for quite longg.
haishh .
ii do so much for mao cos of?
jus to see you smile.

yet? haish.
dunoe wadd you wann oso.
dhen finally meii cum liaoz.

we ggo ikea buy candles.
mao wna gib her a surprise.
dhen we ggo pasir ris park

findd c.m.
but she last min never cum so we order mac.
dhen eat lorhs dhen c.m. cor meii .

ii dunoe & nort sure,
cos ii poongum . blur lerhs.
dhen mao & me prepared e candles.

its dam nice lahh dey.
but badd thingy ish meii don even care yet walk away.
which makes me bekcek lahhs.

ii frankly say , he did alot for you.
whye uu don feel anything?
maybe uu did but ii cant see.

ii very bekcek ii jiu ggo hme lerhs.
donoe wadd they wna oso.

ggo hme chat wit baby online .
ii miss you lots baby.
one more day , yeahx!

* baby , i wana hold your hands tight & walk down the road forever *
* baby , i wana hug you tight in my arms & never let ggo *
* baby , let me kiss you gently & say i love you forever *

# mao , i jus hope ur happy & noe wad ur doing #
ii wna be alone , so uu go peii slat this few days .
takecares boy ;

had a fun day ; but oso sadd

2008-06-21T01:54:00.000-07:00

went to changi village ytd,
sho fun lahh , lol =x
dhen went to geylangg wit maomao & tikopeh.

ggo dhere ii buy thingy ,
walk passed a alley , tmd !
ii kena pulled by a china chicken ~

dam erxing ~ ii push her away lahh dey !
she was like donwana let ggo , ii almost wack her if she don !

but it's fun whole day longg in car & tour man !
so cool , lol =x

but ii miss baby.
dunoe wen dhen can get to see hher .
shagg sia !
tmd lao nehneh.

baby , sorry to let you waited me sho longg last night.
iim sorry , wati goin back?
wow ~ sularti ish who sia?
i still sugar tea sio ~

imy , girl <3
230508 ; ily

suay day ; shagg

2008-06-19T12:37:00.000-07:00

wake up msg baby,
e min iie saw her was .. .. yesh !!
finally iie get to see her !
wna give her big hugg but iie paiseh !
cos her frend dhere so iie asked her ggo a corner.

lol =x lame hor ?
ii paiseh marhhs , bo biian derhs.
dhen ggo meii hus dhere wait maomao.

wanted ttuh smoke ; but hor ?
guess wadd? no lighter!
nb sio~ so iie cor meii ttuh bring down lighter .

hehe , dhen slack at the hall wit baby , her mummy & ryan.
so siien cos nth to tok much. jus wna hugg you nd spend tyme wit you.
dhen baby gan daddy come lorhs.

folo by maomao.
dhen heard baby mum maybe will come here so we sua place,
dhen knn we du dio her mum.

nnb -.- jitao sien 1/2
dunoe hhow cos ii really shagg diao !
a nice day is being spoiled sio~

nbm nbm -.-
ii jiu ggo cp wit meii & mao.
meii meet somebody.
so iie & mao ggo petrol station buy food & drinks.

wait meii lorhs ,
dhen jiu ggo meet c.m.
slack dhen ggo whitesandd cos c.m. bf wna meet hher.
lols ; dhen we ggo mac makan.

ii ask colin to fetch miie up,
dhen we sit colin car ggo meii hus dhere slack.
ii get a 6280 hp frm colin,
so nice lahh hym but tikopeh!

erxing sio ~
nbm tan dio !
hehe ~ dhen jiu went hme lerhs.

baby , baby , i miss you sho much lahhs !
iie really hope today the tyme ccan stop jus for us .
ii really wna let you lay in my arms again .

230508 ; our love never ending / shayne love joyce

im afraid ; of losing you

2008-06-18T14:18:00.000-07:00

baby ; im really scared.
losing you , though ii cant predict anythingg.

yesh , promises are meant to be broken,
but ii wont break my promises to you.
its a deal ii made to myself.

ii really love you lots.
ii know the meaning of losing .
is terrible , ii donwna have tat feelings.

maybe uu will feel siien by hearing ii say ily everyday.
but ii jus wna say it , ii donwna regret.
ii hope to hug uu tight in my arms,
never let ggo .

love you , has become my hobby.
care for you has beome my duty.
dote you has become my intrest.

all is a need , baby.
ii cry wen i think of you.
the feelings is very hurt.

i jus afraid of losing you.
ii donwan , but nobody knows.
baby , 230508 is the day ii found you ; the day ii buried my heart deep jus for you.

i miss you ; badly

2008-06-18T13:05:00.000-07:00

its been 4 days ii din see you,
very sadd , ii jus wna see you.
ii fuck care all those lj mada.

all bo lan yongg wann ,
if same thing happen again,
ii ccan tell uu.
ii wont let ggo instead ii will tell ur mum ily.

ii don care ur mum will take wadd lanpa actions against me.
iim ready , cos ii choose to love uu no matter wadd.
though there's till alot obstacles we will be ggoin through.

baby , don leave me even the sky falls.
ii will hold ur handds tightly ,
hugg uu tightly in my arms,
kiss uu gently nd tell uu * I LOVE YOU BABY *

im nort afraid of anythingg becos ily.
jus this simple three letters , ii ccan prove my love to you.

ii want you , jus you.
i miss you badly.

today ggo c.m. bdae bbq.
emo al alongg actually.
ii poon gum , ii thinking whether uu will leave me cos im afraid.
& maomao nd slatt spending tyme,
c.m. with her bf , ii alone.

so left out , sien sial.
dunoe wadd to ddo.
but think of you. <33

after tat went hme ,
ggo online chat with baby.
sorry to keep you waiting,
duibuqi baby.

hmms , love have no gender.
but dhen beware ur frends around you cos ii hv experienced before.
its true yet scary , so baby careful.
ii jus simply care for you.

ii miss the tymes we hugg tgt ,
chat , tease n play tgt.
ii hope ii ccan persuade ur mum tat ii rly love you.
so we ccan be tgt , but i noe its bu ke nen!

tday saw ur mum at cp ,
wth -.- she ask me today bring ur psp charger come kiddyart .
she come & take ltr.

she keep kp miie , stare miie.
ii v . bekcek but ii don ans back.
cos ii respect her after all.

ii jus wna let uu noe ,
wen the day comes tat ur nort mine anymore.
ii still will care & love you ,
till my last breathe.

*my heart beats jump wen ur near miie *

hadd a tired day ; shagg

2008-06-17T11:16:00.001-07:00

wakeup , msg baby.
iie really miss uu alots.
ii cnt even see you .

iie v . sadd.
totally no mood .
hhow iie hope tat iie ccan hug uu tight nnow,
sob sob.

dhen meet c.m. to take money, dhen ggo meet maomao.
tot ccan meet uu , but nopes .
ii put high hopes lerhs .
bought chocolates for uu.

tot ccan hugg uu , but haishh.
iie tried all e ways ii ccan to save uu out ,
but all bo yongg derhs.
nbcb lahs !

meet up maomao ,
ii saw my gan didi , spare hym cig.
he kena caught by HSA .
sien diao ; my particulars oso taken dwn.

dhen ggo buy cig wit maomao.
she ask a uncle to buy , we both kens again.
same ppl , tmd lah!

e uncle bo tin tin kena 400 orh gongg.
so funny ~ but ii feel badd.
hengg ii kena nth jus needa ggo dwn paya lebar office to see dunoe wadd.

hmms , dhen wait colin.
jiu ggo find slattery meimei.
cos iie nd maomao cnt sell.
cos reasons ish we late !
qi si ren de leh ~ late e uncle dunoe hhow to wait de mehs !
nehneh poke de lorhs ~

hmms , dhen ii sell sell sell.
body sweat cold sweat , handds shivering.
nvr poon gum ii think.

gastric paiin ,
dunoe hhow oso.
ii miss my baby lahh ~
ggort uu , baby , i no need anythingg lerhs.
iie jus wann you ~

after tat cor colin , wait hym come fetch .
we lend his fone see , iie & mao stunt dio ~
wakaoz ~ porn sio !
tikopeh mada~
haha =x

after tat , ggo slat hus blk slack.
iim tired , shagg .
empty brain lahh dey~

ii jiu ggo hme after tat.
wana chat wit baby on9 marhs.
ii jiu hurry on com. lol =x

* 230508 ; the day ii found you *
THE DAY I LOCK YOU UP INSIDE MY HEART *

* baby ; the days without you is meaningless *
* i needs you ; seriously by my side always & forever *

nice toilet ; arlooween~~~

2008-06-15T13:04:00.000-07:00

baby make derhs ; im sure the guard or cleaner will angry till head burst!
abo chua dio till faint lahh dey~
7mth havent arrived , the toilet like majiam wadd sia.

lols =x

kena snap shot sio??
stoopid baby , lamest~~
lols =x

don uu think its nice?
flying bang sai zua sial~

had a fun day ~

2008-06-15T12:16:00.000-07:00

one more week ; baby
the days we spent till my last breath,
ita forever living in my heart ,
ii miss u so much lah dey~

today wake up late ,
msg baby , dunoe wadd i sae oso ,
blur blur cos jus awake .

jiu anyhow reply , ii guessed.
lols , dhen daddy don let me out.
ii waited lorhs , dhen meet zelin at taxistandd cos lack of a dollar to pay cab.
funny hor ? ii noe , 1st tyme ii met this kinda thingy,
zelin hlp me pay lorhs .

jiu ggo up baby hus ,
saw baby , the moment , ii hugg her.
ii miss her so much lahhs ~~~

dhen ggo baby hus de swimming pool dhere.
slack lorhs , ggo toilet .
baby playing toilet paper ;
lol lahhs , ii poon- gum.
blur diao , dunoe wadd happen lerhs .

after tat met up wit maomao.
he for the sake of miie ,
chiong cab to alot places to buy gum for me lahhs.
so happy man , omg .

bro ; thanks for wadd uu done .
ii appreciate <33

dhen dunoe wadd happen , baby dad appeared.
ii dio chua , wna kp hym but sua.
ltr thingy gets bigger , shagg -.-

baby , me , mao , ling ggoin sell icecream tmr .
ii needa chiong ffor my pocket money abo wan dan lerhs.
sch wna reopen lerhs worz.

nbm , baby .
ii will pick uu up after sch.
ggo slack , peii uu.
everyday , ii promise uu.

ccant '' pao boy boy at sch hor ''
ii know lerhs ii will spank ur butt de hor ~
lols =x

my fault ; mine fault

2008-06-13T10:24:00.000-07:00

girl , sorry . it's my fault.
yesh , ur right , frends ccan give goodnite kiss too.
im in the wrongg.

all my fault , ii kpo so much ffor.?
ur frends , iim sorry baby.
uu hv walked into my life ,
uu hv the right to interfere.

ii don , seriously.
cos ii wna giv uu freedom,
ii chosse to let uu interfere.

cos ur my baby ,
only uu ccan care bout my thingys.
ii may be doing smth wrongg,
yet ii dunoe , here ii say again.

* IM SORRY BABY ; MY FAULT*

如果你眼神能够为我 ,

片刻的降临 ,

如果你能听到心碎的声音 ,

沉默的守护著你 ,

沉默的等奇迹 ,

沉默的让自己像是空气 ,

大家都吃著聊著笑著今晚多开心 ,

最角落里的我笑得多合群 ,

盘底的洋葱像我 ,

永远是调味品 ,

偷偷的看著你 ,

偷偷的隐藏著自己 ,

如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心 ,

你会发现你会讶异 ,

你是我最压抑最深处的秘密 ,

如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心 ,

你会鼻酸 ,

你会流泪 ,

只要你能听到我看到我的全心全意.

im sorry ; baby

2008-06-13T08:59:00.000-07:00

ii found out smth ,
which ii donwan to noe .
ii v . sadd.
ii poon gum to cover my sadness.

this morning awake ,
sleep back , dhen awake msg baby.
meet baby at cp.
wit hher mummy.

before tat ii quarrel wit "" big bird "".
ii v . dulan after ii found out she threw my boxers away.
ii dunoe whye she mus likdat lahhs.

went to lavender for counselling.
with baby ; fat , baby mummy.
in bus ii v . emo .
ii jus feel bekcek n sadd.

ii dulan fat & baby ggo bugis ,
ii alone ggo counselling.
though ii kept quite ,
ii feel left out totally.

ii try to cheer uu up wen ii saw ur face black & lik not happy.
ii tried all my best lerhs , ii even wna buy a stitch for uu after counselling .
but ii gtg to hospital cos ahgongg heart attack at ICU.

wen i heard big bird say ahgongg goin soon ,
ii gonna cry but ii bear wit iit.
ii dunoe whye ii feel v . empty.

ii feel so heart painn.
ii don wish & don wana say out.
uu guys wont understand too.
plus its bout smth tat regarding '' you ''.

who ccan i say?
only maomao.
she ownself oso unhappy.
so ii don dare tok bout it.

gger , ii ccan shower uu with love ,
care , happiness , dote-ness .
but ii somehow feel tat iim losing uu.

maybe ii think much but ii really wna ask uu.
ii don hv the courage to , ii ccan only kept silent & think.
wen ii noe uu smoke without telling miie , ii v . dulan.

but nbm , cos uu already done it wadd.
ii ccant stop uu , cos ii myself a smoker.

after hospital ,
ggo meet maomao @ cp.
ggo the temple , pray my ahgongg will b safe.

ii pray tat uu will be safe & guaii too.
pray uu will study hard , but ii forgot to pray for myself ~
ii pray anything can happen to mii but nort uu.

after tat went to meimei hus nearby slack,
ii feel v . weird , dunoe whye .
ii feel so empty , so heart break.

i decided to po0n gum,
dhen ii noe alot thingy.
though ii don say ,
cos ii will pretend ii din noe nor saw.

so ii wunt keep ask or think.
late in the night , ii cry myself to sleep.
its miserable , ii don even feel any pain wen ii slash myself .

ii feel very very very hurt,
the feelings is somehow ii donoe hhow to decribe ,
ii ccan only tell myself ii will give uu wadd ii ccan.

ii noe my time is getting shorter ,
but ii cherish with all the times ii had with uu guys.
its a memories , ii will buried deep inside.

* imy *

crying ; silently

2008-06-12T13:43:00.000-07:00

ii din ggo read ur blog oftenly .
but ii ggo read all the post lerhs .
saw smth , iim glad ii found monster ffor uu.

so uu wont miss hym much nnow ,
ccan chat wit hym , msg hym.
ii noe lerhs oso happy ffor you .

ii dunoe whye , ii ask maomao.
if he's me , will he ggo find monster ffor uu?
he sae nope , but ii did it actually.

ii dunoe whye , ii jus wann uu happy .
till now im blogging , 4.48am.
ii stil cant sleep.

im thinking alot stuffs .
jus nnow got hme , dad wack miie.
ii oso never fight back.
ii diam diam.

ggo back into my room nd cry silently.
all ii ccan do is jus tto poon gum.
to let it out , ii always tell maomao my stuffs.
but he's busy with hys girl.

so ii hv nobody to say.
ii ccan only keep it to myself.
though ii may always be joking around.
infront of uu guys ,
but deep inside im crying.

ii have really break down.
ii dunoe wadd should ii do.
sometimes ii think , & think.

wadd actually uu wann?
uu tell zelin uu will & wann wait miie ,
but uu will find a part - time stead.

meaning? ? wait is * guard the feelings n the person like a guardian angel.
wait for hym or her , without leaving ur soul & feelings include urself.

ii was hurt upon hearing this ,
but ii kept silent.
all this nights , ii slept but ii din actually .
ii dreamt uu left me.

ii was alone behind uu & ur partner.
ii wad afraid. yet? ii din say out , ii was scared.

ii noe uu wan wait , but have u consider carefully .
ii dunoe hhow to ask or phrase it out face to face .
ii jus have to ask here or maybe im jus comforting myself.

baby , do u really love me ? * im nort doubting ur love , but ii wna noe*
baby , u cares ?
baby , do u noe wad u wan actually?
think bout it .

ii wna spend all my times wit uu ; jus you

2008-06-12T12:40:00.000-07:00

baby ; the days we hv spent tgt .
ii love uu more each day , cherish uu more each day.
ii believe we ccan last ; baby.

those 4days we are tgt , iim very happy.
though ii poon gum all tat , makes uu worried ffor me.
but iim really stressed up.

uu msg monster ; or who - so - ever.
ii don mind or wadd , jus tat ii care.
ii jealous , i admit but ii don show out .
ii jus vent it by chasing uu away.

ii wunt ddo tat again , neber will iie.
ii ccan feel nnow , its nort a good thingy to ddo.
im sorry baby.

sometimes ii attitude uu cos uu left me out ,
the feelings ii guessed uu wunt wann it too if ur miie,
ii jus wann uu to be happy , so i find monster ffor uu.

but ii don regret iit cos ii noe ur happy ccan lerhs.
baby , uu say uu wil wait me 2yrs, iim happy.
but ii ccan tell uu , in 2yrs alot of thingy ccan happen.

nd ii wouldnt wann uu to waste ur time toos.
its longg , baby . ii ccan swear ii will love uu till the world is gone .
the day where flowers are all dead , rains falls days n night ,
clouds turn grey , sun unrises , ii will still love uu .

the day we r tgt , ii hv decided to make uu mine .
no matter hhow ppl say , ii don giv a dam cos i love uu.
frankly say , im angry .
bout wen monster or who calls uu ,
ask who is wit uu or wadd so ever.

uu will always say "" frends"".
jus wna let uu noe , as ur stead ,
ii wunt like to hear this .
sorry girl.
maybe im being too possesive ,
but im serious in uu.

although sometimes ii don show my love out ,
but deep inside ii care , if nort ii wont jealous or cry .
even to the extend of cutting my handd wen ii promise alot ppl not too.

po0n gum is all alongg ii wanted to ddo,
but ii promise mao nort to.
in the end still , ii ddo it .

cos ii really v , stress.
hope uu noe , ii will understand ur feelings too.
in a rls , trust is the most impt.

wadd uu wann , ii can give uu.
try my best to ddo for uu , but money ii may not able to afford iit,
happiness ii hv all given to uu , till im alone in the darkness.
without anybody knowing.

wen ii po0n gum , uu saw iie cry .
whyes? cos ii sadd , but ii don wna express it out to uu guys so ii choose to cry wen im poon - guming.

uu may think im childish or wadd ,
but ii jus wana let it out , baby.

230508 ; our everlasting loves.

* baby , i love you *
* & ii never let u ggo *
* but if ii hv to , girl i think tat u should know *
* all the love we make , can never be erased *
* & ii promise uu tat uu will never be replaced *
* ILOVE YOU ; YES I DO , I'LL BE WITH YOU AS LONG AS YOU WANT ME TO *
* UNTILL THE END OF TIME *